This weekend, my best friend from high school came into the city and I had a blast. It was a much needed break from life and my busy schedule.
He came in Friday evening. We walked around the city for a while and just hung out and talked. We had a couple of drinks at a bar. It was a good time. He asked me what I found physically attracted about him. That was slightly awkward but I told him and he seems really comfortable around me which is really nice. He knows that I think he is attractive.
The next evening we went out and he told me that he felt I was holding things back from him and that he knows I trust him and that he was always there to talk. The night went on, we had some more drinks at the place I always go. I am friends with the manager and the staff there so there were lots of drinks all around. I never get drunk. It is not like me at all. But that night I did. On the way back to my place, I just flat out told him about Tony and how I had told him I loved him and how that didn’t go over so well. We made it back to my place and we were both sitting on the couch and I just spilled everything I felt. He kept telling me I was his best friend and everything was going to be okay and other things. He was so sweet. I ended up almost in his arms. He was holding my hand and I just kept going on and tearing up.
I needed to do that for so long and I need to open up more often. I guess I have a problem being comfortable enough around people to tell them all of this in person rather than online. It was amazing. I feel like a load was taken off of my shoulders.
He is an amazing guy. I am so lucky to have him as a friend. I am planning something special for him coming up so if all goes well with that I will let you know. Until then, I am going to continue as usual. I feel a lot better and I am planning some things for Spring Break and taking some time off. Right now I feel excited and I feel light and somewhat carefree. I am going to enjoy it while I can.
Dear Eric, you were the first boy I loved. You made me feel so special when you told me that you loved me. You are a beautiful person. I know that my childish lies got in the way. I still think about you all the time. Thank you for your forgiveness. You deserve the world, and you will have it.