So, this past week I went on a date with someone I had met on OkCupid. He seemed like a nice guy. We both came from similar backgrounds and upbringings. I ventured out and met him for a movie. We saw The Proposal (which was very goood btw) and had a very casual dinner. We really didn’t really hit it off. The whole time at dinner, he talked about his cars which, anyone that knows me know i know very little about. He dropped me off at home, there was an ackward moment of us both saying we had a good time, both not meaning it, before I got out and went inside. We really have only had a couple text messages since. It really wasn’t a big deal, I don’t see anything working out with him.
I met yet another guy online. He seemed like a really nice guy. He works at an Apple store which excited the inner geek in me. We talked for a while. We both took a liking to one another pretty quickly. We were texting regurally which was cool. We set up a time to go out on a date this weekend. The night before the date he texted me and asked me if we were going on a date or just hanging out. I saw this as him trying to distance himself from me because he didn’t like me or something. I got really upset. It seemed like it was everything piling on top of one another. What i am looking for is someone to like me as much as I like them. That’s all. I haven’t found it yet. I had a lot of hope that this would work out better than guys in the past. He seemed to care more about me and appreciate certain things. I took it to personally when I thought he was trying to back out.
Come to find out, he does like me. He has anxiety problems that he then told me about. He said he does want to go on a date, he simply got nervous. I felt bad that I jumped to conclusions so quickly and I apologized. Hopefully, this week we will go on a date and I can tell you all about it.
This may be good for me. In the past, it seemed like I was always the one who really cared about the other guy and wanting to work things out. With him, it feels like an equal effort and an equal appreciateion of eachother. It’s a step along the way. We will see how it goes.
