This Thanksgiving weekend has been a rather interesting one. My family had a nice dinner at my aunts house. It was good to see all of the family. I hope all of you readers enjoyed your day as well.
Recently, I have been getting the sense that everyone knows about me being gay and that me pretending it is a secret is just a big joke. Now, I am not the flamboyant type, and I tend to keep to myself so the obvious signs that people look for are probably not so obvious. I have never had a girlfriend or really showed any interest in women at all. So one could certainly speculate in that regard.
I think the time is coming closer for me to start telling more people. I have been thinking about the best ways to tell my parents. I don’t suppose there is a good way to tell your parents that you are gay. My father tends to overreact to any ‘big’ news and my mother is so ignorant about these sorts of things and she will probably be the one that falls for all of the stereotypes.
My mother is an interesting woman. She really has had a tough life. She lost both of her parents at a relatively young age and she really struggles with alcoholism. I love my mother, I really do, but she is also very unintelligent. All of these things are going to be difficult to maneuver when I decide to tell her.
I need to tell my parents and the rest of my family at some point. It is really what is holding me back from being completely open about it. I really can’t keep putting it off. I am completely independent of them which is comforting to know in a worst case scenario situation. The holidays are probably not the best time to tell them as I am sure there is going to be overwhelming amounts of stress anyway.
On another note, I am going to go hang out with Anthony this week and we are going to watch Glee and maybe get some takeout or something. I am sure that we are going to have a good time. I am really looking forward to going and just being myself. I will keep you all updated.
Anthony visited and we went out on another date Saturday. I think we both had a really good time together. When he first came in, we hung out at my place for a while and then went out to lunch. Then we walked around and made our way to the art museum. That was fun. We spent quite a bit of time there. As we were going through the exhibits, he would grab my hand or arm for a second and then look at me. It was quite adorable. By the time we left the museum, we were both pretty tired so we just came back to my place and hung out for a while before deciding to rent a movie. As we were watching, he snuggled up to me and I got him a blanket. He fell asleep in my arms which has to be one of the most awesome feelings there is. He was asleep for about half of the movie. It was really cute. When he was awake, we would randomly kiss.